I used to think that I was able to stop drinking after years of trying because I decided to put myself first, instead of feeling guilty about how my decision affected other people. But I realize now that there was a decision before that one.
And this decision changed everything.
I first had to decide that I was worth saving.
I have never really thought about this, but reading it, I realised that there was a point (5 years ago or so) where I stopped questioning my worth and just accepted it.
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Me too. It is still a work in progress, but eventually the idea starts to stick. Glad you could relate. 💕
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I love this. It’s very true, but not obvious. Thank you so much for this post. 🙂
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Thank you! A short but sweet post. 💕
It’s amazing how long it took for me to realize I was making the decision every day that I didn’t matter. And if you listen to that voice instead of your better angels, you begin to believe it. It’s just like the drinking voice though. Once you recognize it, you no longer think of the voice as “you.” And you no longer believe what that voice tells you.
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Beautiful, and oh so true 💜
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It’s true that you have to be selfish and put you first to have half a chance of giving up drinking. Friends especially drinking buddies come a distant second!
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I think as women it is especially difficult to put ourselves first. I too am trying to embark on a similar journey. Wishing you the best.
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You are so right, Aurora! We get the message at a young age that we should put ourselves second, that it’s somehow noble to stifle our own voice. It’s so freeing to question that belief and then move past it.
I clicked on your link, No more excuses, and love the cover photo. I look forward to reading your blog. 💕
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I am loving this post. I am also on this jorney, currently on day 3.. All the best to everyone. I am 28 years and I don’t want to be like this anymore
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The fact that you are starting this journey early says so much about your maturity and willingness to let go of a habit that no longer serves you. And thank you for your kind words. 💕
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Thank you so much.. That is such a lovely complement, because seeing everyone around me being able to control their drinking and I cannot, makes me feel so immature and childish. But I have accepted that alcohol is not for me at all.
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I’ll never forget listening to a man speak at a Unity Church. He said, “And as for those heroes that struggle with addiction …” I can’t remember what else he said, just that he called me a hero. This post might give you another perspective on it: (If the link doesn’t work, it’s in June of 2017 archive on my blog.)
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