Love Letter on Ten Months Sober

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An hour ago, I was reading a wonderful post — Challenged by She Hid Behind the Glass about being on day 98 of Belle’s 100 day challenge. Because I have been following her blog, I felt this uplifting sense of accomplishment and joy, as if I had achieved something great myself. I wrote her this note in her comments section:

You should be proud! Did you think you were going to make it? It’s fun to read your first few posts after all this progress. You are really a different person. Congratulations!!!
xoxo
Shawna

As I was getting ready to sign off, I felt this intuitive nagging to stay focused instead, and to reread what I wrote. (I am used to this kind of “guidance,” and when I get these strong feelings, I stop what I’m doing and try to see what is being pointed out to me.)

I reread the words, and thought about my own earlier blogs, and how different I now was from the desperate person who had written them. And then it occurred to me — it was a milestone for me as well. Ten months! Unbelievable. I never thought it was possible.

I read the note again and realized that in a world where we are too hard on ourselves, and are struggling with life as well as addiction, I had written a love letter to myself.

You should be proud! You are really a different person. Congratulations!!! xoxo

And I even signed my name.

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29 thoughts on “Love Letter on Ten Months Sober

  1. Oh my gosh I have foggy eyes now. That is so beautiful and so awesome! You and I definitely have it in common that writing brings us insights and epiphanies. God bless you and congrats on 10 months. I’m just one month ahead of you. Wow! I feel so old lol. 😉

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    1. Thank you, Lily. Sometimes I need to read the encouragement I send to other people and apply it to myself. This self-love thing doesn’t always come naturally, but I’m getting better at it. ; )
      xoxo!

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  2. 10 months is something you should be truly proud of and such an inspiration to those of us who can only dream of getting that far. Let that next two months come one day at a time, but don’t lose sight of what you’ve already achieved. xxxx

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    1. The funny thing is that I am one of those people who can only dream of getting that far. And you are so right about taking it one day at a time. I also have to be vigilant about that little self-sabotager that tends to show up right near the finish line. ; )
      xoxo

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    1. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Ten months is an all-time personal best for me. (I made it 9 1/2 months once before.) Even though I don’t really count the days anymore, I am keeping to my one year goal. And thank YOU for all of YOUR encouragement!
      xoxo!
      Shawna

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  3. Unbelievable is right!

    I continue to be in awe of each day I spend sober. The obsession to drink and drug used to own my life. I live with a freedom today that I can’t quite put in words. Although, when I do, usually “miracle” is one I use too!

    Congratulations! Having clarity is such a gift.

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  4. Shawna,
    Happy 10 Months!!!
    It is a huge accomplishment, and every day you are sober, is a day to be proud.
    Every day I stay sober, gives me another day towards life as it was meant to be.
    Love,
    Wendy

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